My summer has started... Mwahahaha!

Is has been a while since last time I wrote an entry here, but I didn't find any time to do so, I also reached my record without updating in my deviantart since I created it (for those who don't know my DA http://rifkanoctistemporvm.deviantart.com/).

I was busy with upcoming exams and also the whole Ultravixens thing. I have appeared on the 175th issue of Bizarre Magazine, and I am not sure if I won or didn't win the contest, but I think I could, they didn't publish the winner yet but last time I checked how things were going, before they changed to the new month girls, I was on the first place.

I have also passed all my exams, and I finally...

...I finally learned how to growl =) I still need to improve, but I got the point, it's not that hard when you find the path the air shoud follow from your inside.

This first picture I have shown you, was taken long ago, see the black hair was still recently dyed; not a year ago yet, but around 10 months or 11. I don't know why I didn't post it here before, because I like it a lot. (By Sivali D'Lirium, who else ;] )

Today (well, more than today, NOW) Children of Bodom is playing in Madrid, but I couldn't go to see them, it sucks becaus they are one of my favourite bands, I wake up every morning with their music (at least the last three years). It's hard for me to be awaken without something hard (hmmm, but right now I am thinking about waking up with Awaken (Mustakrakish) xD

At least I passed all my exams successfully, that takes off a little the dissappointment.

Here I leave my favourite song from Children of Bodom

Watching the cunt
But before I'm into worries
I do better think fast
Step beyond the legs
Risk selfdestruction
One more sucker
Wait again
To the wrong turn
To the right direction
Too many fucking gonna turn
Going too fast
When you call me outrageous
As a questioner

No feelings - you destroy me HATE
We're welcome - we're on this show END

What the hell was that?
It's a battle name
Tied down everything long before
Blaming all the suckers
I don't give fuck
Till they're coming down
Where I go
Or he's gonna stop me
And when I hear the voice
So you better take care of me now
Knowing that I've always gotta come back
Till the end of life has arrived

Things happen while I grow
No one to catch my fall
Becoming dull is all I know
Resurrection - friend or a foe
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/children_of_bodom/hellhounds_on_my_trail.html ]
No feelings - you destroy me HATE
We're welcome - we're on this show END

Gone too fast
I'm caring about the truth
So tell me how
Fuck me sideways
I've been loved before right now
After I've been down
Well if you don't need to
Resurrect a shadow of myself

No feelings - you destroy me HATE
We're welcome - we're on this show END

No feelings - you destroy me HATE
We're welcome - we're on this show

Remember me, seventeen
Come on, get you going
Have I told you I would return
Come on, get you going
Gotta get on the way
But the butcher
You're allowed to lie
I disapprove my body
Eat my dinner
You dull stupid role model
Who's about to rock

Everything, Everyone
What's going on before
I can't get you back

Things happen while I grow
No one to catch my fall
Becoming dull is all I know
Resurrection - friend or a foe
Friend or a foe

(I took them from lyricsmode)

I have some upcoming appeareances in a couple of webzines, I wish I could appear in more "paper" magazines, but I can't complain, because 15 months ago I wasn't even a model, and now I am in a good position, among girls who have been aroun 5 years on this. But I just want more metal stuff... anything, merchandise, covers... I love goth and fetish, but I want to feel like I am working while doing this, not just a hobby; I want to do really professional stuff.

Now that I have learned how to growl, it would be amazing if I could start a project by myself, I would need good recording equipment, which I don't have, someone to play the drums and keyboard, and help to the songwriting; I can make up nice melodies, but my lyrics are crap, seriously. But well, this would be really difficult, but I have always liket to have my own projects, it helps a lot while finding the style I really like.

I have dyed my hair red, it looks half red and half reddish black, because it has been almos a year since I last dyed my hair black, and I didn't want to take decoloration, and I don't want to go to the hair saloon; I might get it all the same tone, I don't know hahaha.

Here is a picture my sister took a couple of days ago. This is how I look daily, and this is my current hair color.

Now that I am done with al the exams, and my summer has begun, I want to do lots of things, I just don't know how to organize myself, or which ones to foget about doing. (Which ones do you suggest are best to do?)

Studying physics and math, starting a webcomic, starting a drawings deviantart, writing a book I had on mind for long, learning finnish, designing machines, making my own metal band, playing guitar, playing bass, composing, playing on short alternative films... I have always found stressfull how time goes by so quick you realize at some point you have done nothing... Once, when I was 13, I found myself crying because I thought I was old enough to have done something important in my life. I have that problem, I want to do too much stuff for the time I have, and I want to succeed in all those things, which is impossible.

One thing is for sure: I will try to go to Finland for about a month, but I don't know how to find a family there to stay. Does anyone know how to do so?

Well, I think I have talked enough about myself: Here is another pic from the nun shoot, my favourite =) the rebel newrock nun!!! By Arturo Carrasco and make up by Nataschwarzt.

Macabre Models

My lack of creativity and huge lazyness while thinking titles shows up. Guess what's first to say...

No, the first thing to say is I went the first in the ultravixens competition and suddenly the second was again the first... it's one of the most important competitions I have been till now and the deadline of the voting is still far so I wish I could get, and then keep myself first until then, please, it's really important to me... http://www.ultravixens.net/competition/

And now, what about Macabre Models: I want to tell you all I am one of the winners from the Macabre Models contest, and I will be one of the 6 faces representing them =) The others who already won are Demoniccunt (also owner) and Tara Stuart, who have their logos, mine will be up on Friday.

These days I am feeling weird, I don't know why, probably a lot of things mixed together, as most feelings are... It's hard to get far in a clean way, interests are behind everything, in most places are the rotting pieces spreadding the rot; that's one of the things concerning me, I am a humanist, but being a humanist doesn't mean defending people over everything, I think people is interesting to study, awesome as specie, and powerful; but that doesn't make me feel we are worthy. Take a look around and see for yourself. If you believe in a god, he's/she's/it's either not powerful or not good.

I already posted it on my first entry, but I'll refresh it a little since I think most people hasn't read my first entry. These are some of the places I am in:

MYSPACE
http://www.myspace.com/rifkanoctistemporvm

FACEBOOK
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Rifk%C3%A1-alt-model/151801571529305

DEVIANTART
http://rifkanoctistemporvm.deviantart.com/

TWITTER
http://twitter.com/#!/RifkaNoctis

ULTRAVIXENS
http://ultravixens.net/rifka

And, of course: http://rifkanoctistemporvm.blogspot.com/

Don't try lo look for my FB profile because it's full and I can't add anyone T.T

The first picture is from the nun shoot in Foxá, by Carlos Sesmero (make up by Natashwartz), I told you we lost the line that day and the pic wasn't at all what we planeed. I wish I had remember before to remove the hairband from mi wrist, because I like the pic in general...

The second one is the other one from the "Jane in Peril" shoot, by Sivali (also make up).

And the third one: yeah, nun shoot, by Arturo Carrasco. Hope you liked them.

I feel like this post has had a really bad redaction and little information, and I feel bad about people reading my blog and seeing less than what they expected, so I'll leave here a video, it's a bit NS, but the song is amazing:

And I want to remember everybody that if they have a metal band, and they want a model for promoting merchanise, shoots for album covers or anything, just send me an email to RifkaNoctisTemporvm@gmail.com, I wish I'll make my webpage soon, and in that email I only accept stuff related to my modeling.

And to bands from Madrid, If you play extreme metal, and need a bass player, here I am (still not good enough at guitar and growling).

Mosh Party, ultravixens, and nuns.

These weekend has been full of news and interesting stuff ;) I didn't even have time to study so tomorrow I'll be completely busy.

This Friday was the Mosh Party, we listened to Under Vultures (grind, black, punk); Carnivore Diprosopus (colombian slam brutality); Cuernos de Chivo (death hardcore metal) and Wormed (sci-fi death metal).

I have been one of the eight ultravixens selected this month, and I would love to be the winner so I need your vote here http://www.ultravixens.net/competition/ and I would also like you to spread this because I need a lot of help!

And today Sunday I had a nun shoot ;) This was like a summary, now I'll tell you everything in detail.

The Mosh Party was nice, but if I am honest, I expected a bigger mosh. Sadly there isn't a big metal community here, comparing to other countries in Europe, and in small concerts people hardly get enough motivation to mosh. But the bands were insane =)

I went while Under Vultures were performing, the singer at a point said "believe it or not, but we just played three songs non-stop". He was right, I just heard about 10 minutes of crazy guitars and growling under a frenetic drum hitting and, of course, bass.

In Carnivore Diprosopus was a guy with a mask running around the stage, and I would say a quote or something from him, but mixing semi growled voice and colombian accent made an absolutely impossible to understand result.

While Carnivore Diprosopus were singing, I saw around Phlegeton, and I went to talk to him. I did never meet him before but we talked online some times the last months: he is the singer (growler) in Wormed and Human Mincer, artist in Phlegeton Art Studio (extreme CD cover designer), photographer, drummer... It was nice to finally know him personally, he's really kind and he gave a CD to my bf and another for me.

Then, Cuernos de Chivo, they played a really good cover of Hammer Smashed Face (Cannibal Corpse), and the singer seems to be nice, he was a kind of homie of a friend who came with us to the concert. His quotes are funny, such as "we are going to play a new song, and if you like it cool, if you don't, then throw us a bottle or something", "our next song is called corpse bride (maybe corpse girlfriend, cause in Spanish it's the same) and it's about that, a corpse bride!". But the best bit was right after playing a song called "Rallas" (means one of each lines of cocaine druggies inhale); and while he was singing, the room started smelling like marijuana, at the end, he says "it smells like drugs here, and that's what it was about: drugs!".

To close the concert, Wormed played, with Phlegeton leading. He is also the drummer, but not live because he would probably end the concert in ambulance if he tried to do so. Playing and singing death metal at the same time in a concert is not exactly easy.

I don't think he said anything, if he did, it was growling, so don't expect me to understand it.

Then was really the mosh thing. I got a spike-lip pearcing nailed on my hand, but the guy was nice and after the mosh came to say sorry about it, and it was cool, because I was wandering what the hell happened to my hand xD

Now it would go the Ultravixen competition thing, but with what I said at the beginning, I thinkit's enough.

Today I had a nun shoot at Foxá M-30 hotel in Madrid, in the chapelle. There they collect antiques, and it was a nice atrezzo for the shoot.

I met there an alt. and cyber model called Ruby Machine, she was cool and I'd like to work with her again in the future.

I'll not tell details from the shoot because I'll show you the pictures when ready ;) I'll only say that we finally lost the direction and half the pics were not at all how he planned, but improvised stuff is fucking great.

The pics: Lady Mechanika by Raquel Jaramago, Wind by Sivaly and Fifth Wound shirt shoot by Sivali.

BeDeSeMe Magazine

Hi!

I have been recently featured in BeDeSeMe webzine, and I would like to share it with you.

http://bedeseme.com/pre.htm

this link drives you to the last month of the webzine, so if clicked later, it might be another issue. Mine is issue 8.

This week has been hard, a close person died recently, he was a family member and his lost means for me loosing a role model. And if that wasn't enough, a guy on the train tried to spit on me because I told him to use headphones (he was an analfabete-coarse looking guy putting his music loud). Sometimes I'm afraid foreigners think we are like that.

I'm kinda slowed down in some stuff, because of the family thing I lost a photo shoot and then rejected another two because I wasn't on the mood.

Anyway, along this post I am gonna put some pictures from a shoot done during February (not sure tho) but the pictures couldn't be sent to me earlier. The photographer is Tabaré, and the make up artist Silvia Gil. I personally liked the results.

I want to remind everybody that I am a model focused on alternative stuff, but metal is still one of my maximum goals. And if any band wants a model for a CD cover, for merchandise, for a video, or anything, I'd be glad to work for them. And I would also work on book covers.

Here I leave my mail for booking me or anything, but please, serious RifkaNoctisTemporvm@gmail.com

Do you like Theatre Des Vampires? it's not a band in my favourites, but I like a few things from them and I love the singer looks. This shoot kinda remind me of her, so I leave you the video for the song La Danse Macabre du Vampire. I just love to hear girls growling.

What I think about being true / Jane in Peril contest

Hi!

Lately I haven't been very active (not here, where is common, but in lots of places I am in), and I feel the need to work on more extreme stuff.

But anyway, I keep projects coming and that's something, and I am about to have my first "modeling birthday". And I honestly think that coming from the point "0" I have achieved a lot.

I am waiting for the pics from a shoot I made more than a month ago, but the photographer is too busy, so I'll show you in a couple of weeks =)

I have been thinking lately about the "true" metal stuff. What is really

to be "true"? If you only listen to metal and wear spikes they call you poser; if you like other stuff and dress whatever you like, they call you fake, and lots of examples could be.

I don't approve fanatism, not at all, not in religion, not in polytics, and not in music or lifestyle.

Some years ago you could like metal and act however you wanted, but right now it's kinda alarming how they can watch you and either say you are a kind person, so you can't listen to extreme stuff becaus that's for agressive people, or state that you are evil, "just like all those fucking satanic bastards".

I am aware that this could offend someone, but I felt the need to say it. I personally think that metal could be and could not be a lifestyle. It's a music anyone could like, and some of the styles called "metal" (which are actually VERY different from one to another) have certain message on their music, and a lifestyle behind it. The look, the thoughts...

For example, I like some kinds of ambient music, and sometimes I would like to listen to it, while I am lying on a bunch of pillows, with the windows opened and incense burning. And that doesn't mean I want to go hippie, live in the forest or go vegetarian.

People don't compare a writer's personality with what she story characters do, they don't insult a pop singer for singing about love and being a playboy in his real life.

I persnoally like extreme metal (black and death), wearing spikes and black clothing, taking bloody pictures on the photo shoots, going into the mosh pit and feeling the power of the people at a brutal concert.

I also like puting on extra long fetish heels, huging my little sister, wearing make up to feel prettier...

I hate cheesy stuff, typical teenagers movies, the discussions like "I love you-I love you

mooooreeee-no, I love you more!!! (etc.)".

I hate cheap violence (I could be agressive in certain situations, but just "being bad because it's cool" it something absolutely gross). I hate snuff, is someone wants to cut his/her own arm, ok, but never do it to someone who does not want to.

This is a resume of myself, I don't want to act as I am who I am not. I like metal, extreme metal specially, and I feel comfortable with the aggresive look, but I am a person, I am a girl and as most of them I like looking good and stuff like that.

I am not a girl who gets close with musicians to feel she's part of the band; when I was little I started studying music, my first instrument was the contrabass. I left music because I wa

s a stupid kid who wanted to do everything and after complaining for a couple of months, I started crying the same day I left, because I wanted to go back. Then I was 8. When I was 14, I started playing bass and taking from time to time my mother's guitar. When 18 I went to a few guitar lessons and singing.

I don't want to state myself as a music expert, in fact, I don't practice so I could sound pretty much like crap if you heard me playing. I just wanted to say that I really would like to be part of a metal band, I can kinda growl (still need lots of practice). I am not a groupie, I just like modeling and metal stuff, so I became a metal/alternative model; and I would really like to work on covers, merchandise stuff, etc. Not to lick anyone's butt, but to feel like I am doing something I enjoy.

Well, here I leave a couple of pictures, the first is from a fetish shoot with Daniel Poza, the second one is with Sivali D'Lirium, for the Jane in Peril contest in deviantart, started by Shadowyzman,

creator of the character.

News

This last two weeks I have been to some shoots, and I am satisfied with them, I'll be soon sharing some of the images with you all.

One of the shoots I had, was inspired in the comic girl Lady Mechanika, I didn't know her before, but I liked her style a lot!
The photographer was Raquel Jaramago, and she brought me the outfit. It was also there a friend of her who put my make up on and she did my hair, but I don't remember her name.

I joined the Ultravixens competition to be on the cover of the magazine, by the way, here I leave for you the link to my profile there: http://www.ultravixens.net/rifka

I am actually reading a book called "the power of sects" and it's a subject I am interested in, the way a group can influence on the individual, manipulate and destroy someone from the inside, doing horrible things and make that person still thing that's the best. Creepy, really creepy. Groups, support and receiving influences is awesome if you keep yourself thinking and being critical, not having ideals, or having them closed is suicide.
Influences enrich, brain washing kills, sorry if I get too philosophycal, but these kind of things have always been of my interest. How someone could do literally anything when pressend and brain washed, and brain washing is very very easy.

Well, let's talk about something more interesting, or at least, not worryfying: Melechesh. I don't know if you know that band, but I am amazed and I wish they come to Spain soon. They play some mix of black, death and sumerian folk. Incredible.




Now, here I leave you the Lady Mechanika inspired pic.




And I realized I finally didn't share here any from my gore shoot by Living Dead Division months ago, so I am posting it here also. The redhead is Kris Sirk.

Fifth Wound artworks

I think I will be every post saying how sorry I am about posting so far from time to time.

The Fifth Wound project images are finally done, I show them here but I can't give permission to anyone to use them because they are for the band.

I am working on upcoming tests right now for my studies, but also with different shoots, so great ^^